Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Pig Face, Bird Brain
that's like a lil too nice of a name for her.
stupid old woman.
since NSL till now, shes nvr put me in her sight.
bloody hell, if you dont wanna see me on the team,
YOU MIGHT AS WELL OFFICIALLY TAKE ME OUT???
better than always making me feel like shit,
questioning my abilities....
dont look forward to 21s this yr.
think it'll be hell of a roller coaster ride.
so angry!
& my stupid stomach's gurgling. -.-
not helping!
dots ranted at1:46 AM
Sunday, June 5, 2011
i think both of you need to stop.
its getting abit burdensome...
i appreciate your kindness, but please,
not all the time!
dots ranted at9:39 PM
Friday, June 3, 2011
they are so unfair!!!
hmph!!!
im glad i wont be in SG during that period next year!
i dont need to be reminded of how much im worth to them.
zilch.
depressing.
dots ranted at10:12 PM
Thursday, June 2, 2011
I LOVE KUNGFU PANDA
I LOVE DRIVING
:D :D :D :D :D
dots ranted at3:18 AM
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Suit Yourself
looks like im always back when i have things to complain abt.
heh.
and bloody hell, its always abt the same person?
srsly. that shit needs to disappear from my life.
im actually happy to be gng NZ to study next year.
get away from her. get away from everyone.
get away from all the hurt.
i think i can safely say i dont like her anymore?
but i dunno. it always fluctuates when i dont want it to -.-
but im determined. shes not good for me anw.
shit face.
im determined to keep as far away from her as possible.
not gonna hurt myself, not gonna trip myself.
its so hard to even be friends now.
i came first, but someone else is taking my place now.
its hard not to get jealous, im only human.
even my bestfriends left me?
no contact w me for how many thousands of years.
only to wish me on my birthday & say thank you when i wish them.
how can that be the only time we talk?
i think we're bestfriends only by name.
r/s wise. zilch.
my bestfriend doesnt even know me for who i am.
she doesnt even give a damn.
i dunno why we're bestfriends. WHY?
but i alr said. must have just been for the name sake of it.
why do i always have to be the first to initiate convos w everyone?
except shoes. i love you for that shoes. :D
the world sucks.
life's a bitch.
work's a bitch.
im so jealous of other ppl who still have close friends to hang out w most of the time.
why cant my life be like that?
exactly why NZ is good for me.
i'll be alone.
lonely, but knowing its okay because im a foreign country on my own.
staying here makes me feel lonely but horrible because i know all my friends are here,
but none of them are there for me.
bloody hell. ALONE IS GOOD.
ive been angsty to everyone lately.
like the whole world is at fault.
i shld stop that.
its not good for me or anyone else.
this is not me.
im supposed to be a nice kid w a good heart, a forgiving heart.
a take-it-easy soul, putting others first.
now im a selfish, self-centered brat.
I NEED TO CHANGE.
I NEED GOD.
im slowly letting the evil one consume my soul and drag me away.
it needs to stop.
Lord God, please help me.
please help me change and stop all these madness.
Amen.
oh btw, work's been good.
been keeping up well.
Val left, Luke's leaving, Junni's leaving. ):
Evonne's coming back though!
hope working w her will not be as bad as it sounds.
student vet coming in next mon!
hope he's young & good looking? heh.
I WANT A RAGDOLL (:
dots ranted at12:43 AM
Monday, March 21, 2011
Just Tell Me Why
ah. im here again.
why?
i just cant get it,
*ahem*
i mean you outta my head.
not in a good way though.
im srsly getting very frustrated alr.
can you at least tell me why you arent continuing our convos?
you can tell me im boring.
you can tell me im annoying.
you can tell me you dont want me to get wrong ideas.
you can tell me ANYTHING.
just dont leave me hanging.
im hanging & feeling very much empty.
why do you stop suddenly when im here waiting for you like an idiot.
yes, im an idiot for you.
why cant i stop myself?
why cant i do smth for myself to make this pain go away?
love hurts. ):
shoes, im really getting very jealous of you.
sigh.
im losing my friend ):
SUPPOSED alumni meet today.
stupid rain & lightning.
cost me my workout today!
totally feeling FAT.
im soooo worried abt my tummy fats recently.
maybe cos im gonna wear a bikini during the trip.
im gonna look like a melted cupcake like
how Kuanhon always describes flabby tummies.
but i just keep eating.
i keep getting hungry! ):
im not gonna lose it.
*sigh*
but we def had a good chatting session today.
seniors are def the most entertaining. (Y)
had a good laugh abt the new & old sms language.
totally hilarious,
ii lurbb euu, muackzxzx,
aNd tHiS iS wHaT bAi gEtS aNnOyEd bY.
HAHAHAHA.
best is Bai trying to speak mandrin proper w intonation.
good try Bai. :D
time to do some random stuff.
toodles! :D
(the nail polish on my left ring finger's nail has been scratched ): needa repaint! lehceh!!)
dots ranted at10:49 PM
Saturday, March 19, 2011
Times Have Changed
hi faithful blog.i havent been faithful.
ive been dating twitter & neglecting you.
so sorry. i shall try to date you more often.
not only when i need to rant.
haha. but you're quite tedious to keep up with....
game was good for the first 3 quarters today. (Y)
steady flow, good intensity, good pace, good composure.
last quarter, 오 마이 것.
passes flying everywhere, composure into the drain, totally gave everything away.
WE WERE BLOODY LEADING.
but cos of...
ya. then, 빠이 빠이!
go into the drain.
아이고. 정말 답답하다.
i have resigned to my fate to just watching.
so, no worries! haha.
nowadays, 아이고.
im just getting ridiculously enraged
whenever i watch the way you 2 act arnd each other.
its really frustrating.
okay, it kinda hurts.
i think i shldnt be arnd the 2 of you together.
1 at a time is alright.
2 is just wanting my soul.
its soul killing. ha.
things only the 2 of you know,
and which you want it to remain that way,
please dont hint hint,
whisper whisper it in front of me?
totally not cool.
im sorry i said smth abt your friend that way.
but i really think she did change.
maybe change for the better on your side
since you know her more than i do now.
sorry i forgot that bias-ness is inevitable now.
shld've kept my bloody mouth shut.
damnit.
i guess im just really lonely now.
ohwell. i shld just throw my phone away.
i hardly use it anw.
i hate handphones. -.-
okay, gonna play nancy drew. :D
toodles!
dots ranted at11:54 PM