life decisions suck.
did a lil catching up with my girls on tuesday. (:
THING YUAN NI, you're finally there. :D
crashed tuesday's french lect, sat on the stairs with rus,
next to me, on the seats, were yuanni and xinyi.
shock of my life okay.
coincidences can nvr be any better. ha!
headed over to TM to meet aiting,
ate and then went to buy wenchien's present. :D
lotsa laughs still, love you girls to bits! (:
went for socio tut on tues too.
OHMYTIAN.
DAMN BORING PLS.
i'd rather count sheep. --.
the ppl in my class were so weird too! (except audlek of cos)
seriously, damn WEIRDDDDD.
cldnt take it anymore, i know i'll flunk if i cont in socio.
totally no interest, zero, zilch.
its like GP okay. wth. --.
anw, changed it to music!
same class as fern! :Dhope i can cope with it yeah, since i have no music backgrnd.
well, only in primary 1. --"
had CSAS 2 today.
kns! this sem is abt public speaking.
shit to the maximum!
i cant freaking speak in front of an audience.
even 5 ppl staring at me talk, i'll get nervous!
damnnnnnn. im screwed.
had to present abt yourself for 2 mins today.
bloody hell, i just embarrassed myself in front of everyone.
was so flustered out there. mind totally shut.
no words whatsoever flowing through my mind.
temporary mental block. --.
the last part we're supposed to say what we'd like to learn during this whole CSAS module.
i said: have more confidence to speak in front of an audience.
BULLSHIT. CONFIDENCE DOESNT COME EASILY.
so dead. --"
i like the teacher though. really encouraging and nice lady. (:
IHATECSAS. --"
and netball is so demoralising to be in.
its like so much competition in the team for me.
its so hard to fight for a position for myself since im a mile away from everyone else in terms of skills.
damnit. i dont wanna train for nth.
but all seems lost.
with more strong players coming in,
IM DOOMED.
i wanna quit so badly, cos im feeling damn out of place, damn lousy in the team.
but i love the company so much, i cant bare to part.
and i still love netball though.
oh, the dilema. IHATETHIS.
nvr had to go through this in sec sch.
damn, i feel so spoonfed in sec sch.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! just i wanna scream.
first match for the girls tmr!
JIAYOU! you girls can do it yeah. no pressure!
just play your game! im always there to support yall. (:
love love loves(:
dots ranted at11:30 PM