Sunday, December 28, 2008
hell yeah. i miss it.
was feeling quite down about today's OOTB sharing session.
i just felt really irritated with myself cos i know ppl have things to share about.
like you know, what they have experienced,
what they have learnt.
seems ALOT you know.
like the trip impacted them THAT MUCH.
truth be told, i didnt feel that much impacted.
maybe a lil, in certain ways,
but not to their oh-so-cheery extend.
im just sad.
):
but i talked to dad & mum today abt it.
felt so much better after talking to them.
(i realised im opening up to them more. :D like just talking about how to grow in the Lord. feels great. :D)
they told me that even though i just took home a small lil lesson,
if that lesson continues on with your normal daily walk with God,
its all that matters.
if that lesson doesnt, then it may well be just emotions.
(not to bring down you others yeah)
and well, it was reality check, so true mann.
i know that i'll try to immerse myself in the God's presence in everything i do.
let him take charge of my life.
let the Holy Spirit be my ultimate prompter and guide.
I SURRENDER ALLLLLLLLL. (:
was talking to D again today.
got to know some juicy but embarrassing stuff.
HAHA.
nvr knew ______ thought of me that way.
mann. quite hurt when i heard abt it.
but can you imagine if he gave me chance?
maybe i'd be really happy now.
maybe i wldnt have to go through all those dumbass jerk guys.
(sorry. but true.no offence yeah.)
you know what D, i think we can be each other's secretkeepers. :D
well, i have to admit.
i do miss being loved by someone.
i do miss loving someone.
life seems empty without love.
my life seems to have that big HOLE.
ppl always say you can live without love.
yeah, true.
but life wont be fulfilling without love.
suddenly knowing so many ppl are in a relationship,
or courting ppl,
or having ppl court them,
and me just only getting to listen/watch,
just feels so empty.
i feel happy for all you attach/going to be attached ppl out there :D
but i guess im not happy for myself.
but, but you know what.
i'll always have my first love.
GOD. (:
clinging on to Him is all ive got now.
SIGH.
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