exams are finally over! :D OMG, so happy okay! *CLAPS* finally the long tiring draggy semester is over. FREEDOMMMMMMMMMMMMM!
signed up for Korean lessons alr. first lesson on Saturday morning. so exciting! :D im so eager to learn yeah.
sigh. i cant believe i went for trials. -.- i really dunno why? like i really dont wanna get in, but i still went for it. seriously. why? i cant find the reason in my head that made me go for it. was it peer pressure? no. was it cos i could make new friends? no. was it cos i enjoy the sport? no. im getting tired of it. i dont wanna train anymore. i think its because i know im still eligible for it. so its like a no harm trying that kind of thing. i thought i would have absolutelyNO CHANCE of getting in. but now im damn scared i'll get in. i really dont want. REALLY. i really dont wanna go for 2nd trials. but i feel its rude not to. somehow. but i REALLY DONT WANNA. uggghhhhh.
i want some magic to happen. some abracadabra that i wont get in. i keep seeing myself slogging my guts out during trng. all the long runs, the endurance trngs, its freaking torture to me now cos im not that interested in the sport anymore! why then would i wanna push myself so hard? to achieve smth that i dont want. all my trngs would be a dread, and i'll do it zero-heartedly. and then i'll get scolded often, making me frustrated and angry all the time. 지금은 어떻게? ):
anw, Brown Eyed Girls are in town! (: went to see them at the airport. kinda impromtu thing since we had time. worth it. was so close to them :D fancam-ed, but really lousy quality. handphone cam, TSK TSK.